Dreams vs Reality

What happens when there’s a gap between the dream and reality?

How do I move forward when the magic of possibility fades?

What is there to do when following my intuition doesn’t mean I get paid?

Sure, I can search for limiting beliefs or rummage for manifestation techniques

But in truth that’s not what I’m seeking

I know action is the cavity between my dreams and my reality

I love the fleeting sparks of aligned acting

But I also hate that they’re fleeting

They leave me to try and discern the rest of my being

I feel inundated with questions I don’t yet have the answer to nor want to find myself

While I relish the endless possibilities that spirituality and communing with my soul presents me with

I don’t relish the gap between energetic sparks and entrained alignment

As I grapple with the chasm between who I am and who I want to be

I’m left to wonder what works for me?

When the dream was

To create a world better than the one I was given

To become more than who I was taught to be within restrictions

To live a life fuller than what I believed even existed

Now I look around with a bachelors and masters but no concrete direction

A shattered faith in a rigged system

A desire for personal stability in an era where change is the only constant

I, myself, have wavering hope

That I can actualize that something “better”

So, I don’t know

I’m resting

And walking towards

Tiny goals

Not to grasp the magic

But to move forward